Monday, February 14, 2005
What has got into me~
Well this few days, Me and jamie are really getting alot of problems. i dunno what has got me into this. Alright admit my attitude towards her was like shit. she doesn't really desreved this kind of treatment from me.. i duno why i would treat her like this. but its jus tt i feel something is not right...i can't find the remedy to it.
is it because of the character we had, or the understanding of each other. The problem is tt perhaps i dun really understand her well. Cus somethings she said i may not really understand what she really wans in her heart. In the case tt makes me feel so lost, keep wondering if she really wans it this way, or if i think what i'm thinking i may get her wrong. TTs misunderstanding, end up arguing whos right whos wrong. i dun think tts what i wans now.. It jus make me so afraid of saying the wrong things or doing the wrongs things to her.
Now she is not by my side i'm thiniking back on my mistakes i made, and what do i really wan from her or what she really wans from me. Repeated mistakes won't do us good.. What she could is to love me or not love me, but what haf in me is i onli can love her and love her deeper. She is jus so important to me tt i can't give her up.. i admit the thinking of breaking up haf float in my mind be4 but tt was jus angry at the point of time, a thinking tt was way too rush. never thought of we still haf a long way to go. it ain't fun ending a relationship jus like tt..
We are old enough to think abt it. Its easy to start a relationship and go through it, but its jus so difficult of letting it go, well i supposed i should think positive. Should not haf pinpoint bad times together to come out this solution. What abt those happy days we were spenting together, those days were enough to cover up the wrongs.
Well valentines days is jus minutes away from now. yet i'm here throwing out my feelings..I dun ask much from u for this special day, wat i'm asking for is spenting this special day with me happily and forget abt those unhappy days. I promised u i won't do things behind yr back, never to leave u, never to gif u attitude.
i do truly love u...
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